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According to a popular American preacher, Greg Laurie, the unjustly imprisoned and brutally treated Iranian born American Christian pastor Saeed Abedini was released from the sheer horror of his Iranian jail “in God’s perfect time”.

Just what does and did this rather pat, easy kind of declaration in the context of serious suffering mean? Laurie of course didn’t elaborate but I can and shall because there is a way of having some clues as  regards times and timing of major events and how God may organize them. I had been anticipating a resolution to the Abedini affair before long by either release or death. The matter was rather clear ever since last September’s solar eclipse which fell on 20 Virgo, the degree of Adedini’s destiny related Saturn (if we can assume that Wikipedia is correct in supplying him a birth date of 7th May 1980 somewhere in Iran).

Since however at the time of the eclipse fortunate, grace-bringing Jupiter had entered Virgo, the sign of Saeed’s own Jupiter and favourable to his Taurus sun, on balance life and freedom seemed more likely than the dire alternative. With Jupiter moving where it was I had even been a little surprised we hadn’t heard more positive news earlier, but  what I didn’t know was that in the last few months since the relevant eclipse Saeed’s conditions had been improving  in anticipation he would be released – he was even been better fed and was putting on weight, something associated with Jupiter transits.  When Saeed was finally released, factors which would have been clearer and more predictable if the time and place of his birth were given, touched off his natal pattern including that the God-linked and transformative Pluto was fortunately trining the pastor’s sun and Jupiter was approaching conjunction his Saturn.


There is little question about the torture and abuse (including refusal of necessary  medication and being shackled and beaten) that the unfortunate Saaed suffered in his native land. An American citizen he had gone to Iran with its government permission to open an orphanage only to be deceitfully arrested as an enemy of state before he could fulfil his agreed mission. At last report, following release Saeed has been in Germany being examined and treated for his condition. Mystery nonetheless surrounds what his long suffering wife Nahgmeh regrets having reported under stress late last year  [though now on Jan 27th with her husband returned she has filed a Domestic Relations case, something which could lead to separation or divorce].

Nahgmeh has passionately advocated for her husband for the last three years but a few months ago admitted to suffering mental and physical abuse starting even before the marriage and this related in some undisclosed way to pornography. It seems that even jailed whatever these “demons” of her husband were they hadn’t quite left her spouse who could be abusive on the phone, so she wants prayer for restoring a marriage after the years of separation and misunderstanding.

All this is puzzling in the extreme, especially as to many Saeed has seemed and been the figure of a very saint and angel amid his patiently endured trials, a Christ figure even. In prison there were conversions to Christianity through his supposedly Christ-like influence. Indeed Nahgmeh herself had herself originally been attracted to Saeed including because when he worshipped she had seen a halo of light around him. It is interesting that the mentioned Saturn falls on what I would seriously claim (see below) is the degree of sun at Christ’s birth. Saeed’s destiny thus easily becomes Christ related. He is like a martyr crucified with Christ.

I won’t and can’t dogmatize, but looking again at the birth pattern I think we may have clues to what is going on.

For a start I think the peculiar conjunction at birth of Jupiter with Mars at 0 Virgo makes for and exaggerates passive/aggressive situations not least verbally and mentally because Virgo is a rather mind games sign. Enlarging Jupiter in relation to Mars tends to ramp up sexual desire (pornographer Marco Vassi who had sex daily for two hours had Jupiter conjunct Mars albeit  in another earth sign, the more goatish Capricorn). Yet paradoxically the same Mars/Jupiter aspect can be very crusading  and outgoing in religion because Jupiter is the religion/ faith planet. Take it that some of the religion-and-sex- problem with straying evangelists can  start precisely here – the person loves the faith and energetically proclaims it but they like sex too.

Mars/Jupiter in Virgo perhaps wants the sex rather less than some signs like Vassi’s Mars/Jupiter in Capricorn, but it still risks some of the masochism of Virgo; it could both give and suffer cruelty perhaps especially mentally. Moreover, given a quirky independent Aquarian moon disharmonious with his Taurus sun, Saeed could live with a few contradictions a bit more easily than some. For him it would just mark difference, not hypocrisy. Also from just his cultural background Saeed who has now [2nd Feb] dismissed as largely untrue claims his wife makes,  would probably expect to be more bossy and demanding with a spouse than would be considered quite correct in the West.


It sounds like Saaed could resent his wife, but if so for what reason when she was exhausting herself across America on his behalf as Saeed is quite prepared to admit (he calls her a hero)? Again I won’t dogmatize, but I think any resentment could be for a reason Saeed might not himself clearly recognize, know or  understand (especially in the American evangelical world with its narrowest possible treatment of sex and gender issues). Whatever, just hearing Saeed’s talk and tone put thoughts into my head that sent me to the birth chart and into this article.

In line with things stated in a two part article with revelations about many things perhaps especially Christians badly need to know (,  I wanted to see if by chance I would perceive any pattern of “afflicted” Neptune. I suitably and rather clearly could. In this instance Neptune was “square” ( approx 90 degrees) to Saturn. There are other possible patterns of affliction, but sufficient to observe here that one of the more notable persons to have a problematic Neptune was the poet Tennyson who wrote In Memoriam, that elegy and love song for the deceased youthful Hallam. You might need to go to Sufi Persian lyrics to find such beautiful poems to men again. (Modern Iran’s persecution of gays runs counter to established features of its cultural history in which “the beloved” in especially poetry was nearly always male). Though one needn’t read too much into it because the horror and loneliness  of Saeed’s prison situation would anyway make for attachment, but it is noticeable the pastor immediately becomes very attached to and weeps over the young American marine he at one time shares his incarceration with.

Wherever Neptune is difficult there are liable to be bisexual tendencies (not the same picture for gayness which is more definite) and to be frank about it, bisexually inclined husbands can also be quite dismissive of and even cruel to wives. We see it in Dickens (consider his natal chart and what the Copperfield, Steerforth bromance betrays) and in Oscar Wilde and Gauguin; and though we can’t know his horoscope, it looks as though the David who rated Jonathan above the love of women was pretty dismissive towards his wife Michal.

Also worth noting is that writer Andre Gide was prepared to swear that when Wilde spoke in Paris he saw him haloed. We have recently heard much about the late David Bowie who said, and then said he wasn’t, bisexual though under an afflicted Neptune he plainly was; and if he wasn’t haloed he was certain seductive of people in a myriad ways. A bisexual male rings in the changes and rarely fails to surprise inside or outside religion!

There’s an old, partly and sometimes true saying, “the stars incline, they do not compel”. I obviously cannot be certain and it would be helpful to know what kind of porn it was that drew Saeed, gay, straight, bi or sado/masochistic, but a quite likely explanation of the pastor’s problems is some American evangelical style repressed, unacknowledged bisexuality that is making him feel resentful, unfulfilled or awkward in marriage. If so it won’t be cured, it can only be managed in the best possible way. I suspect the troubled union would run more easily if like David with Jonathan there was a same sex friend somewhere in view and if the almost saintly Nahgmeh kept her husband on a very loose leash.

We can at least know that just this is pretty much what Saeed wants and expects. With his moon in Aquarius and his Venus in Gemini (, in other words in two particularly freedom and independence orientated signs, what he wants and likes in women is a certain free-wheeling, democratic style. Whatever Nagmeh’s own pattern may be, we know she has some potential towards this. It was unexpectedly broadminded of her to declare that advocating for her husband had made her more aware of the needs for everyone under God to be free, even if need be atheists to be atheists.


I fear however that the long suffering Nahgmeh has some poor connections in the circumstances. She even managed to be charmed and is extremely grateful to another afflicted Neptune personality, Barack Obama, who to follow a now widespread view has only done something if anything at all for Saeed belatedly and under extremes of pressure. Obama has too long shockingly underrated all Christian issues and problems. He has never helped Christians in their Mid East persecution by even letting the word “genocide” (that he applies to the smaller Yazidi minority) pass his lips though it would have been legally and otherwise helpful if he had. Obama has made shockingly weak compromises with an Iran almost laughing in his face. His one aim is if possible to defend and never offend or challenge Muslims for anything whatsoever.

Another unworthy or unhelpful associate/supporter of Nahgmeh’s is the ebullient if not bullying Franklin Graham whose sensationalizing, poorly researched statements on anything in the news helps brings Christians and Christianity into disrepute. He certainly won’t be helping Nahgmeh with any of the kind of problems I envisage as possible for her because his attitude towards gays and bisexuals is so totally uninformed and unenlightened he has even been praising the despicable President Putin under whose homophobic rule gays can even be tortured on the streets. Those at Charisma magazine who have an interest in the troubled Abedini couple might well want to exorcise any bisexual devil out of Saeed.


It really and truly is about time American Christianity in its evangelical and charismatic wings sorted itself out rather more on some themes. That includes even the astrology that was associated with Christ’s birth and that neither the Essenes nor the rabbis of the Talmud regarded as the forbidden practice that American Christians have unilaterally against tradition made it. (They do so because they consider it a form of the “divination” its measurements plainly aren’t any more than they have anything to do with the pre-astrological customs of sky reading omens which is what the prophets declare against – looking at the heavens like leaves in a tea cup and forecasting futures.

As said earlier I do believe the birth of Christ is something that can be known and his birth chart provably shown to be something that responds to Christ issues to this day. That same last eclipse that hit on both Saeed’s destiny Saturn and Christ’s natal sun and then this year’s eclipse conjunct the position of the Bethlehem Star were for me part of the promise that my own intolerable virtual imprisonment of sorts as a doctor of religious studies and author will finish after a whole cycle of Saturn (28 years) as far as the grail-like information regarding Christ’s birth is concerned. The full and true facts should be published in the US before this year is out and hopefully in September.

For many reasons that will surprise, the case will be so absolute, so difficult to refute, so different from all preceding it that it could finish a challenge to elements of American religion itself to the extent some new and renewed thinking will be required to absorb it. Meanwhile one must simply hope whatever precisely it is troubles the life of the Abedinis can be happily resolved now that the unfortunate pastor is out from his Iranian hell of conditions still endured by Christians and others and that just by itself raises questions about the wisdom of the kind of arrangements with Iran America under Obama has reckoned to make .




Germans have long referred to their Chancellor Angela Merkel as Mutti (Mummy) Merkel. The usage is in decline as it becomes clearer that Germany’s Great Mother may well be  compromising the nature and fate of Das Vaterland more than almost anyone since Hitler. Merkel’s peculiar, even reckless invitation to a no upper limits migration policy, which itself involved suspending EU asylum rules, takes some understanding.
Every society necessarily has its limits and borders and this particular welcome was advocated in the face of disturbing evidence (that a sometimes craven PC press and political elite try to suppress), that migrants from the Middle East and North Africa, who are not all genuine refugees, are hard to assimilate and behind record increases in crime and unemployment in Germany ( Only in the face of major outcry and threat to her position  has Mutti, rather too late, modified her position a little. This year alone one and half million are likely to have streamed into Germany which could well amount to millions more added to the population when family unions have occurred.
Mutti is easier to understand if one looks at the Chancellor’s birth data (July 17, 1954, 6pm Hamburg. For chart see The pattern even warns she is someone no one should let near politics if they care about national health and security. Even  if we disregard that the very political Saturn in her career house is conjunct the disaster bringing, demonic Black Moon Lilith, (a factor much used by continental astrologers),  the overall  picture bespeaks a degree of real eccentricity and muddle even though its Sun conjunct Uranus bespeaks high intelligence at some level.  Brilliant “Mad Shelley” was historically one of those who had the conjunction but he wasn’t a politician.  And Merkel’s sun/Uranus is additionally afflicted by a tricky square aspect to Neptune, itself on the destiny and career Midheaven defining her. It is also opposite asteroid Ahmed, a name of Mohammed and the nearest thing to an Islam asteroid, a faith whose nature and motivations she is unlikely to understand well given the aspect. The pattern might be fine for an artist (Shelley wrote The Revolt of Islam) , but not a nation’s leader. It’s another Sun square Neptune politician in the form of Obama is currently behind the fast fading influence, increasing confusion and contradictions of American policy.
It is a commonplace in astrology that leadership needs some of the rigour and decisiveness of Mars, Pluto or Saturn in positive aspect to the sun. It doesn’t need any aspect to Neptune, especially not in so-called affliction where it can register unclear, weak or dishonest aims. Neptune on the Midheaven, when not referring to the arts, can even warn of scandal and Merkel is in herself something of a scandal! Not least including just how controlling and undemocratic she can in reality be behind the smiles and looks of concern. The same Mars and Pluto which would be better positively supporting a leader’s sun (her Mars afflicts it by quincunx), instead aspect one another in Merkel’s pattern. This is the mark of the indefatigable but also controlling person who not only suspends EU asylum rules at will but doesn’t hesitate to tell the head of Facebook she wants the negatives regarding migrants and migration off the Net. The latter doesn’t suit her odd wishes and narratives, so they shouldn’t exist, free speech be damned. Heil die Mutti Merkel!
Arguably, though, the Merkel problem starts with the Sun in Cancer, sign of the mother,  rendered somewhat eccentric and extreme by the mentioned close conjunction with Uranus and strengthened by two other planets in this watery sign (a watery emphasis which helps Merkel open a few “floodgates”!).  Cancer often wants to mother the world itself and be like that icon of Cancerian America, the Statue of Liberty with its ”Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free…” It’s just that, practically, there is the big difference (one that a leader without an afflicted Neptune might better realize!), that Germany is a relatively small country in contrast to the vast America which having controversially disposed of a sizeable portion of its indigenous population, suddenly found it could use the world’s weary to sustain its expanding borders and  economy.
If Cancer loves to mother, Neptune aims to be inclusive and flood-like dissolve boundaries, but the problem in our times of crisis is that Merkel’s Cancerian sun, encouraged towards a measure of self-deception by afflicted Neptune, is so ultra-inclusive that beyond her own country it is causing headaches for Europe more generally. It has already and inevitably encouraged increased migration to bordering countries less economically able or socially willing to absorb the massive influx.
With asteroid Europa in Merkel’s home/Heimat sector in affliction with divisive Mercury she doesn’t clearly see either what Europe truly is or needs and perhaps still less Germany – asteroid Germania is in degree exact negative quincunx aspect to Saturn in her career house. Thus  she divides opinion and people while with Mars in Sagittarius, sign of the foreign, she will fight for the foreigner almost more than for fellow citizens. And in harmony with her rising Sagittarius and its ruler Jupiter, if and when she cares for people it must be as  Mother Bountiful lending grand gestures to whatever she does. Like Sagittarian crooner Frank Sinatra doling out massive tips to all on sundry or gifting dinner guests gold watches, Mutti won’t hide her charity under any bushel or do things by halves. Amusingly Mutti’s generous Jupiter even makes exact easy trine to asteroid Silly.
The  misguided almost permissively silly will-to-bounty  manages to overlook what is most essential in terms of the real needs it should address. Sometimes pushy, aggressive, mostly male migrants able to pay their way to criminal people smugglers, are being let in while the religious minorities most violently persecuted, (and in the case of Christians under threat to the point of annihilation of their whole culture and past too), are not being either specially helped or defended. They can even to be left behind and ignored,  pushed to the back of the queue because self-righteous secularism or postmodern forms of Christian morality cannot bring themselves to take sides  and assist according to any particular beliefs and needs.
Merkel’s Cancerian sun is ruled by the moon which some would therefore regard as the chief factor in the total pattern. For Merkel the moon is in individualistic, independent Aquarius  at 15 Leo, a world point…it’s helpful for leaders to have something on at least one of the six world points and the moon is Merkel’s sole WP contact. But this same moon is directly opposed to asteroid Theotes (God). Arguably this tells us that Merkel’s mothering is not the kind that would necessarily be approved by God… fact, to the extent the Bible right up to its last book does envisage distinct nations of peoples, simply swamping whole peoples with others beyond the strict call of meaningful compassion is way outside what Christian charity is about, to whom and how it is supposed to be administered. This is especially the case when, ironically, some migrants even despise the welcoming host as infidel and there have been cases anyone can  now see on video, of supposedly needy migrants tossing away food and water supplied by the infidel Red Cross ).
It looks as though refugee behaviour of the kind reflects a view there is no charity to be received from the West but only dues or taxes (jiza) to be obtained from the infidel to  whom no gratitude is ever owed. (The Koran is opposed to friendship with unbelievers). In such contexts, which lend weight to popular and especially Hungarian opinion that some of the current migration is more like invasion, Merkel’s no limits charity is  shown for the vain gesture it is, little better than a new species of self-congratulatory, self-satisfied  religion substitute. In religious terms it might even be deemed an outrage; and though I don’t want to read too much into it, in the chart of someone already with the demonic Lilith in her career/destiny sector, I can’t help noticing that the two main asteroids of evil potential, Lucifer (the devil as light) and Malin (the devil as darkness) are unusually emphasized in the Chancellor’s chart.  Lucifer is emphasized by conjuncting the chart’s base angle (it thus involves what she does or thinks about the home base), and then Malin by exactly sextiling the chart’s Venus, ruler of her empty ninth sector of religion and beliefs.
Yet no matter how dangerous and disharmonious the charts of Merkel and the likewise afflicted Obama may be, they do expressively belong to and reflect our times in a special way. Afflicted Neptune in the leaders speaks to features of the Neptune ruled era of Pisces now drawing to its close.
The 29th degree of any sign is exaggerating and insatiable, extreme (for both good and evil) like the last flaring of a candle before extinction. There is no 29th degree of an era that can be measured with the precision applied to signs in  a birth chart, but there is little question we are at the last and  29th degree of the era all the same. And the fact is that 29 Pisces is deemed one of the worst if not the worst of degrees on the zodiac, long associated with death, murder, suicide, theft, loss, deception, drowning  and victimhood of all kinds as of the refugee.
The troubles in Syria have been on the rise for years now, but it is significant it was only earlier this year and following an eclipse on 29 Pisces that there has there been a marked increase in the deaths at sea and the entire refugee/migrant problem. And the crisis in Syria, Libya and elsewhere has not been adequately dealt with due to weak leadership accompanied by often perverse expressions of Piscean compassion and tolerance barely able or willing to distinguish between real refugee need and economic opportunism. Some of the blindness is furthered by loudly voiced and media accepted elements of socialist theory, (the Labour party was born under Pisces) which regards everyone as victims of material conditions, scarcely free moral agents or adherents to specific belief systems affecting their actions. While Its discourse can place the West on a permanent guilt and self blame trip, its will to forgive and include can finish by whitewashing or excusing even the unworthiest persons and societies.
It is of course the Christian or post-Christian nations that are most guilty of the current political mess because the declining era approximately began with Christ and Christianity’s birth. What we are witnessing is a certain decadence of the once Christian world which is wide open to the judgement that those who hate it would happily visit upon it. Whatever now happens, and the signs are hardly encouraging, I have little doubt that, given her pattern, the over-confident Merkel will in the long term be go down as a figure of infamy, a foolish betrayer of much and many.
(The following appalling and disturbing   article about the situation of Christians in relation to Turkey (most migrants to Germany are Turks)  should be compulsory reading for this half blind daughter of a Lutheran pastor and any of her supporters inside or outside the churches when they speak of “tolerance”, “freedom”, and that often meaningless expression used as a slur not a true description, “the far right”





Some years back I read somewhere of the insistence of a certain preacher that some forms of goodness amounted to virtual rebellion against God.

I recoiled and still somewhat do, at the blunt, seemingly excessive claim which I hardly  understood. Only now I am having second thoughts about what might have been more obvious from the first….After all, Jesus condemned Pharisees who gave charity for show and said their reward for it was here and now and not in the hereafter (Matt 6:12). In other words, to feel good was enough for them and they got what they wanted. It had nothing to do with God’s intentions.

Though spontaneous compassion is good and should not suppressed – the same Jesus obviously also famously approved the Good Samaritan – sometimes what is truly  good and best for people needs to be found out, thought about, prayed about, not least as regards the long term. Ultimately what is good is “God’s Will”, not whatever one might think on the spur of the moment.

Right now we are arguably having a major demonstration of the not so ideal goodness of a post-Christian, godless West. It is one in which Germany, as though in penance for  past failures and determined to exchange Aryan racial  purity doctrines for  mongrel multicultural ones , is leading the band and making it so easy for migrants/refugees to enter their nation that it is encouraging still further immigration towards other nations, less wealthy and less able to cope.


Should Europe simply ignore the refugees? Well obviously not, and no decent person wants to see people dying unnecessarily at sea. But  serious questions  have to be asked  all the same and appropriate policies put into place.  More questions are  surely appropriate when all those who have major responsibilities in what has occurred –  non-interventionist Obama, brutal Assad, unwelcoming rich Gulf States, evil people smugglers , corrupt, impossible to live in African states –  are being far less opposed, criticized and protested to or about by those would-be sympathetic sectors of the  general public marching with banners for immigrants or giving them handouts.

There are moreover refugees and refugees ; the difference between  the genuinely dispossessed and economic migrants is increasingly recognized as a real issue.The world has been properly enough  moved by the image of a tragically drowned child, Aylan Kurdi; the reality nonetheless is his father was not escaping Syrian persecution. He had lived and worked safely for three years in Turkey and wanted a better life (and treatment for his teeth) in Europe and risked his child’s life in a dangerous journey for that.

At least some of the Syrians appear to be, and might need to be, tolerably in pocket to have got as far as they have when others are left to their fate in rather greater need. Some even seem rather demanding and pushy, not hesitating to call any hostile authorities “animals”  as though  it was somehow a right for vast numbers to arrive suddenly and uninvited upon settled societies and as though the international law that requires refugees claim asylum in the first safe nation they  reach, didn’t apply to them because it didn’t suit them. Would Muslim societies host, indeed have they ever hosted those they dismiss as “infidels”?  The West needs to consider, even if rumours are false about ISIS smuggling in their members among the refugees, that the long term effects of the open policy could be to alter the entire face of Europe forever and maybe lead to its Islamization too.

All said and done, and with the best and most tolerant, liberal will in the world, it must seem from the experience of recent years many Muslim immigrants have the reputation of stirrers. As Hungarians are complaining, they are less likely to assimilate and do in Rome as Rome does than any other immigrant group. In the end, everything from school curricula to national diet can  get called into question. Just recently a seriously ghastly case of the almost continuous persecution over years in  UK’s Bradford of a Pakistani Christian family by Pakistani immigrants has come to light.     Is this non-assimilationist situation,  assisted by a too often blind  multiculturalism, what is really wanted? Is the new  multicultural will to abandon long held traditions, customs and values in quasi-submission to Islam’s often insistent demands what the tolerant, democratic West really wants and its future children deserve?

The auguries are not good. In Sweden refugee Syrian Muslims have been making life misery bullying already traumatized Christian refugees, insisting they remove crosses, even pushing them out a refuge centre .   (Swedish  police did nothing, the country is almost hostage to PC attitudes and can be pushed into almost anything for peace and quiet!). Then there’s the anti-Semitism that risks importation. The same Palestinian girl who engendered press sympathy when she was tearful because Merkel said not everyone could be accommodated, a day or two later was declaring Israel had no right to exist. The  Middle East doesn’t understand, and perhaps doesn’t want to learn, western notions of fairness. Will the refugees even be grateful for being admitted or will  they  consider it what infidels only owe them like so much jiza tax?

There are Christians like Giles Fraser of Britain’s The Guardian   prepared dramatically to declare it’s Christian and biblical to let just everyone in at whatever price – he wildly cites  Mosaic teachings about the alien and sojourner.  Apart from the fact the regulations refer to provisions of an ancient theocracy, this open doors position quite ignores that the refugees Israel would take in were then intended to observe the laws of the Hebrew system. Would Fraser wish to demand migrants sign on the dotted to observe democratic values, or take classes with a view towards conversion to Christianity? All said and done, Christians are supposed to preach the gospel everywhere to  everyone, (it’s Christ’s final command to his disciples)  something political Islam everywhere singularly forbids, and something the “compassionate”, social gospel brand of Christianity is  in no danger of doing.  So the ultra-socialist Christian position is just a lot of hot air and silly posturing .


Meanwhile the moral cowardice of inter-faith Christians and the prejudices of multicultural favouring unbelievers, raise hypocritical hands in horror at the suggestion Christians, though by far the most  radically persecuted group in especially the Middle East, subject to outright genocide and  ruin of their historic culture, should receive any kind of preferential treatment. Broad-minded Europeans won’t presume to dirty their hands taking sides among religions!  Not they, they are so tolerant, so generous! Typical of the current PC line has been the execrable Obama who, even when 21 Copts were (openly) executed specifically for being Christians – their executioners even promised to war against the cross and make  attack upon Rome – not wishing to offend Muslims and still less praise any martyrs, could only say 21 “Egyptians” had been executed by ISIS.

What alas this PC attitude, somewhere between ignorant and hypocritical has been producing over recent years, is a suppression of proper information and action in numerous cases of Christian persecution, some in places like Pakistan and Myanmar/Burma whose victims should have been loudly protested for and given refuge in the West long ago. While the banners and loudspeakers of concerned citizens protest for Muslims, who speaks for today’s hopeless Christian refugees of Pakistan’s persecuting Islam living precariously when not imprisoned everywhere from Sri Lanka to Thailand? Who protests for the numerous imprisoned Christians of North Korea – for that matter who even bothers to mention those Christian and others cruelly imprisoned in Iran to which Obama cannot concede enough and at the expense of American citizens without whose release no deal with Iran should ever have been made?

Media will regularly take sides over Muslims we hear for example of the unquestionably badly treated Rohingas in Burma, but for the last two decades scarcely a whisper from media about the rape, torture and murder, and genocide of whole Christian communities which, since they belong to ethnic minorities, have fallen foul of not so kindly Buddhist Burma’s horrible tendency to ethnic cleanse. It cannot be said enough that once outside the West, Christians are the most persecuted group and often enough where any Muslim majority rules. But it’s not only  Muslims. The atheistic Chinese government has had thousands of crosses torn off churches in the  recent months and the treatment of Christians in many areas continues unacceptable but who is protesting? Not the likes of Australia and its government whose trade and good relations with China is the prime consideration. Then there are Christians in Vietnam imprisoned and not allowed even communion or bibles. The list goes on and on. Who is protesting?  Giles Fraser and the social gospel Christians or the noisy student professional protesters of just about anything? The silence is deafening.


I don’t need to be a prophet to say with some conviction that a fair deal that currently passes in the West for goodwill and charity is little better than an abomination to God, quite outside any divine will for nations and is a work of self-delusion, self-indulgence and self-congratulation, an  unspiritual myopia that cannot see any larger view. There are forms of goodness like deeds of the church of Laodicea that Christ simply despises. The good works will never substitute for the hazy attitudes towards all and any ethics and beliefs nor would it buy any divine favours for normally materialistic, immoral societies – they might even court divine dismissal.

What has happened and will now happen may even be a mark of, in some degree, God abandoning a society that has abandoned all belief and loyalty, however broad, to inherited beliefs and tradition. Christianity is not good enough for the brave new world’s sense of righteousness. But let free of God, it will open itself to other than the freedom it thought to establish and represent. Arguably the downfall of the West is being played out before our eyes. It is said the migration is “of biblical proportions”. No one is saying that alarming lessons of a biblical kind might also be expected to be learned from it and likely too late.

[Though the subject is very different, I would encourage all readers of this article to go to my other site and read Something the Australia Press Doesn’t Want You to Know ]




I usually think of Franklin Graham as a sensationalist, a tactless, open- your-mouth-and-put-a-foot-in-it type person and have criticized him on this blog accordingly. However…in the matter reproduced below from his Facebook, I am obliged to agree with him and even as a gay theologian. Currently my respect for American LGBT and American gay Christian attitudes is in rapid decline if not freefall. I detest, feel ashamed of and dissociate myself from what the LGBT (or should I write LGBTQI since the acronym ever extends?!) is uncritically and without protest allowing to happen. If democracy means anything I do feel conservative and perhaps any Christians in America have something to complain about and  fear from what is not too inaccurately being called a persecuting Gay Fascism.

Before anything else I would nonetheless emphasize I do consider that the record of American Christian attitudes, especially conservative ones, has often been plain unacceptable. Christians  have stood by while violence was perpetrated, they have turned a blind eye to the suicides and depression their attitudes and claims have precipitated, they have aggressively discriminated and many still do since one of the largest if not largest groups among America’s homeless are young gays disowned by “good” Christian families. I have mocked such things in my satire, Songs of Puritania on a Gay Theme

….Don’t tell me you’re born gay for gay equals sin
My own fourth husband would not let you in
To our house his walk is too close with the Lord,
And though I’m anti-abortion I give you my word
If our son turned out queer I’d wish him unborn….

Christians need to be careful they don’t seem to be (as some accuse them of being) persecutors moaning they no longer have the right to persecute). From one point of view one might even  have to say that “the mills of God grind slowly…” and American Christianity is reaping the whirlwind and,  despite all the current protests and prayers, doesn’t even have a right to divine assistance short of changed views and real repentance for the backlog of serious deficiencies.


Having said all that, let’s consider democracy. If I own a home or a business, as my property I should be able to do and say there most things I wish. If someone asks me to design posters, take photos, or even bake cakes with, say,”Heil Hitler”, “Worship Shiva as God” or “IS will save the world” involved in the work, surely I should have the right to refuse? And though it might be better if I were more open minded and on what’s a less radical issue, should I be forced to support images and slogans for gay marriages I don’t believe in? It should be my democratic choice as long as I remain polite about it. It’s obviously more complicated and controversial, indeed a matter for the laws, if I run a hotel and I don’t want gays as guests, especially so if there’s nowhere else they can stay. But  otherwise…..? How did it ever even come about that there is any otherwise?


It could perhaps be  only through America where people demonstrate such group consciousness forever craving “acceptance” and “inclusion”, even hugs and kisses so as not to feel “rejected”, that Political Correctness supported by laws would arise to infect the West and create what effectively is a  new undemocratic intolerance. You must love, tolerate and approve me or I’ll sue you. And in litigious America just how and with a vengeance! I’ll even ruin you.

Two lesbians refused a cake (see below), not apparently satisfied they have already been the ruin of a Christian couple’s business to the extent they may even now lose their home, are happy to accept from a judge (whose own attitudes need serious questioning), a fine of $135,000 for their “hurt feelings”. Hurt feelings?!  Such poor, precious darlings! Did the Christian couple stand there cursing and swearing at them as doubtless at some point in their lives some straights on the street did?  If this lesbian couple have pretensions to being at all butch, then one feels like saying they should man up and not be so delicate! And all of us who have ever had any book or poem refused by a publisher had better get to court fast to make our fortunes! This is just raw vindictiveness and revenge – unless they cared to hand the Christian  couple the money for their survival, which I doubt they will be generous enough to do.


But where are the leaders of LGBT while this and other outrages sprout across America? Out at rave parties or inventing more unreadable Queer theory essays for academe? They are at least partly to blame for what has happened. Stuck on the mentioned American obsession with “inclusion” at all costs (that obsession without refusing which most of the world’s art and great deeds could never have been realized) they have theorized and argued about gay/queer in terms of similarity to straight society. In so doing they have made gay equality a duty to be imposed and defended rather than homosexuality a meaningful difference to be understood and catered for. Homosexuality is always greatly involved with the human difference without respect for which art and democracy can’t thrive but will rather be overtaken by fascists imposing their values. It was “gay” Greece supplied us some root aspects of democracy – Judaeo-Christian values did the rest. But an almost mathematical doctrine of equality is now helping to confuse and render intolerant the whole gay issue along with democracy itself.

We may also ask where are the Gay Christians akways so keen to establish their own rights, to protest the wrongs being done to fellow Christians? I realize that some of those Christians in trouble with the laws may be bible thumpers and bigots whose attitudes one might hope could change and achieve greater theological sophistication over time, but the more important point is this. It is undesirable and even dangerous to legislate against whatever is genuinely held by conscience, which is what is now happening. The backbone of any society and any democratic system relies upon people living and arguing from conscience as the history of recent centuries in the West surely demonstrates.


The doctrines that leaders of LGBT have been promoting (and society including gay Christian groups has been imbibing when not half bullied or shamed into accepting) don’t necessarily correspond to what gays themselves want or believe.

A recent example was when that spoiled brat element in the character of singer Elton John was up in arms against, and even calling for boycott upon, the Italian gay fashion designers Dolce and Gabbana for questioning aspects of gay marriage as regards parenting. Gay actor Rupert Everett has likewise expressed severe reservations about gay parenting. If it were not for the issue of gay parenting I would myself be a more wholehearted supporter of gay marriage. It is solely a stress upon “equality” applied to homosexuality which has forced this aspect of affairs through the door of gay marriage. Personally I feel that if the sometimes toxic, laws-damaging obsession with equality/acceptance could be overcome (alas it seems too late), gay unions could be left to emerge as a more appropriate expression of the gay difference.

Short of a will almost to punish it is hard to understand what kind of persons gay or straight would wish to impose (as could now happen following certain Supreme Court decisions) on dissenting clergy the duty of marrying gay couples . Gay Christians of real  faith, those most likely to want a religious ceremony, would hardly wish to be joined amid the resentment and ill will involved. They ought surely to prefer to just live together and take it as a union anyway….in the early Old Testament cohabitation was marriage, there was no ceremony of the modern kind nor scarcely was there for many centuries of Christianity where like the Good Wife of Bath one just stood outside a church door for blessing. It’s only the legal details and personal rights like wills, taxes and so on make some kind of officialized union desirable.

 I am disheartened and appalled by the extent to which American establishment or just academic LGBT values and persons have dominated the gay world and influenced politics and laws besides. One can hardly get a word in as their egotism so reckons to dominate the whole field with megaphones. And they really are becoming, if they haven’t already become, just a materialistic, godless form of opposition to all religion, an apt vehicle of secularist agendas. Thin skinned they brook no criticism and so merely contribute to the kind of false liberalism in America and recently in England, that is even working towards calling any criticism of Islam “Islamophobia” and an indictable offence – in England one health worker was even stood down from work for daring to invite a Muslim to church, an act that was interpreted – in this day and age of ISIS executions as “bullying”! – as a case serious enough to go before a tribunal. So much for the healthy influence of American Political Correctness on the world. One cannot call some Christians merely hysterical for complaining that gays are contributing towards coming persecutions of the Antichrist! The situation is just very negative, read and describe it how one will.

Despite having a world first and published doctorate in gay spiritualities from any religion studies department anywhere, I have managed to be ignored and almost never mentioned or acknowledged by American gays whether secular or religious. I seriously regret this not because I am not “included” and “accepted”, but because I choose to believe I could have contributed something towards views that would have avoided the chronic polarization and damaging attitudes we currently witness. It’s too late now, and as I have written elsewhere, I long ago abandoned gay studies and research because of the indifference or opposition.

What I have done is retain my integrity. I am not convinced that in the face of what is happening American gay Christians are properly keeping theirs. They are called upon to protest.


Last night Aaron Klein, the bakery owner who declined to make a wedding cake for a lesbian couple, called me with the alarming news that an administrative judge had ruled that he and his wife Melissa will have to pay $135,000 to these two women for “emotional suffering.” Unbelievable! The Kleins have already had to close their Oregon bakery business, Sweet Cakes by Melissa and do not have this money to pay. Aaron said it would financially ruin their family and could cost them their home. They have done nothing wrong, and their lives, along with their five children, have been turned upside down by this persecution. You can’t call it anything else. This is wrong, and it’s happening right here in our own country. Liberal judges and officials siding with the LGBT crowd are trying to make a point with the undeserved punishment of this family. This is America—we should have the freedom to live by our sincerely held religious beliefs. It’s obvious who is really being discriminated against here.

I think we need to help the Kleins. First and foremost, continue to pray for them as this nightmare continues. Secondly, if you would like to donate something financially to help them and other Christians going through similar ordeals, go here to Samaritan’s Purse PERSECUTED CHRISTIANS-USA fund. We’re all in real danger if something isn’t done to put a stop to this kind of deliberate targeting and malicious treatment of Christians.

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 Fifty Shades of Grey, a film from the fifth most read book of all time (according to a Nielsen’s statistic) though beyond the breathlessness it’s not well written? Fiction almost overnight popular to the level of Harry Potter and the Da Vinci Code? A “romantic” novel or rather series of novels about Bondage and Discipline, Sadism and Masochism (BDSM) to entertain the public, more especially the female public, in an age of feminism and autonomy? Provocative material being written, acted, talked about and domesticated by apparently happily married people, if possible more ordinary than you are yourself ?….

Then too, the rich, damaged but sinister and alluring Christian Grey is played by an Irish  actor,Jamie Dornan, who in real life loves home and wants more babies. An Australian Weekend article describes the star as almost “frighteningly handsome” though it’s hard to see what’s so frightening in the almost boyish, half worried face that outside of the film the ex model prefers to hide with a beard. In interview Dornan’s humble hesitancy and self deprecation are not sexy – you could even imagine him as a submissive victim of some ancient or modern matriarchy!

So it all seems too paradoxical and a bit strange and if, like many, BDSM isn’t your thing, it could also seem rather unhealthy that shackling people, whipping, bruising them or drawing blood amounts to any sort of entertainment or expression of love. But I will suggest this whole Grey phenomenon could be stranger than strange and that what is hidden and least known in connection with it might be what is most significant.


The actual inspiration of the author’s work was (apart from the menopausal conflicts and fantasies to which she admits), the example of the also poorly written, extremely bestselling Twilight vampire series of novels from Stephanie Meyer. And a strange story attaches to that series. It had been triggered by an extraordinarily initial vivid dream of a charming, vegetarian, more or less innocent or cute vampire who then became fiction’s Edward Cullen, himself surely more accurately realized for cinema by Robert Pattinson than Dornan incarnating Christian Grey. But in the wake of completing the series its author  confessed to experiencing something inexplicable. Edward reappeared to her this time, terrifying her as apparently a blood sucker ready to kill her and not the innocent figure she had imagined (1). She has declined to write about this revised figure.

I don’t like to find myself on the side of conservative American Christians who seem unable to speak of anything sexual and erotic save in the most extreme, alarmist and confined of ways, but in this instance I have to agree with those who find Christian Grey a potentially bad idea and influence, one that is as much and more spiritual than simply moral.

The practical/moral objections have been obvious and familiar enough and could apply to porn generally whether soft or hard. The more you are turned on by Dornan/Grey and by kinks, say the critics, the less likely you will be satisfied by your too ordinary partner at home and a regular sex life. It’s hard to think that your body, your partner’s body or the Creator is glorified by messing around with someone’s body even if only in a charade of cruelty and contempt (and sometimes accidents and misunderstandings do happen). And within an already permissive society what sort of example is one offering to the young and impressionable who may take a fad and run with it in the wrong direction? (We have had a foretaste of that with Anne Rice’s vampire fiction which though the author dismisses her work as just imagination, has nonetheless helped set in motion an entire vampire/goth cult with at least some persons regularly seeking blood).

While all this may be true (at the same time as such moralism rigorously ignores that in cases of marked ignorance or repression some erotica/ porn might have an unintended educative value), more vital may be the ignored spiritual levels. Christian Grey, like BDSM itself, is at once in opposition to and/or perhaps in a sort of rivalry with religion whose symbols it is happy to exploit. The very name Christian Grey announces there will be some sort of religious connection, Christian’s partner’s name, Anastasia, means resurrection, and by the end of the series we gather that Christian will have been redeemed (sort of) by the pleasure/pain “sacrifices” his victim-lover has made to him. But the symbolism in almost any direction is dark. Although it is widely stated the film of the book is being premiered on St Valentine’s day, in fact its main American premiere is Friday 13th, likely an intended play upon popular superstition – a superstition nonetheless related to the theme of Judas and 13 people at the Last Supper and Christian Grey might be said to offer a parallel Judas path to salvation at a time when Judas is trendy thanks not least to the extravagant Lady Gaga.

The secular society of course cares not at all whether Christians are offended by exploitation or misuse of their symbols and doctrines, but if they are not that does not mean they may not pay in the long term for raising the devils for profit or entertainment. There’s always time for the Edward factors to show their real colours and the secular rationalist society is ignorant of the extent to which kinky sex practices can be black magical and have long been associated with evoking the dark side.

Society is still more ignorant of how the experience of responsible exorcism suggests that troubled (possessed?) individuals are strongly associated with parents whose sex lives had been particularly deviant. In the days when my doctoral studies on gay spiritualities took me in all directions, I noted that S/M gays, (a little known sub-set of the would-be all-inclusive non-judgemental gay community) were frequently seeking alternative spiritual experiences or in some instances even advertising themselves as masters who could bring you the demons.


But my esoteric speculations with their objection to the easy domestication of a “harmless” or “boring and silly” or “merely glamorous and trendy” Christian Grey fad goes further. There is something really odd about the Erika Leonard (aka) E.L.James phenomenon that strikes me. It is something that the conservative Christian critics don’t know and wouldn’t acknowledge any more than the secular society though I am prepared to say it’s a loss not to. It stops you from seeing you are almost certainly faced with not just a fad to criticize or flippantly enjoy, but a movement in the collective unconscious that’s at once meaningful and unhealthy.

The half Argentinean, half Scotch author was born with Sun in Pisces and moon in Leo….just like the super successful Roman poet Ovid. In both instances they are big time sexually provocative writers (albeit Ovid was a great poet while James represents pulp fiction). Both have attributed their work to imagination rather than extensive experience from life. In short, they present themselves as innocents in terms of example or influence even when that example and influence is enormous.

Interestingly too for “Christian” Grey, Ovid was born just before or near the dawn of the Piscean era which connects with Christ’s birth, while Erika Leonard writes at the very end of the same era, whose sign has a long association with betrayal and by one ancient tradition (and alleged revelation in the case of the late Jeane Dixon) with Judas. The sign itself has long been accorded the motto “serve or suffer” which of course gives it some affinities for any eroticisizing of pain. And I should say that among men as opposed to the large female audience and readership for Fifty Shades it is going to be Piscean males (like I have just seen Australian singer and actor Johnny Ruffo on Twitter) who will lead the band to declare what a wonderful film Fifty Shades is.

It was the pagan Augustus rather than any Christian who on the cusp of the Christian era banned Ovid to the Crimea for allegedly corrupting his generation with his writings. There may have been more to the banishment than just the moral issue (see my article  Ovid for Ever and Paul Janka for Sometimes at,  but there is little question that Ovid’s The Art of Love glorifies seduction and infidelity to an exceptional degree and does stand historically at the gateway of what is popularly called the Roman decadence. In turn it is arguable that Erika Leonard feeds into what is most sick behind the scenes in our society’s urges – over 2 million recently rushed to see video of the burning to death of the Jordanian pilot that as against other channels America’s Fox News was determined to show– in the interests of instructing us in the brutality of ISIS. As though, if we were intelligent at all, we couldn’t and shouldn’t know that from report already!

The difference between the case of Ovid and Leonard is that Leonard is not going to be banished by either pagan or Christian. It simply isn’t the style of this end of era to face facts and call them what they are. Open to every lie and thus to every Trojan Horse, it is the decadently muddled way of the times to relativize or trivialize the seriousness of issues, to let anything and anyone through the door, even if need be calling the most radical permissiveness a belated form of Christian charity itself. People must now be allowed, accepted, approved in their every need and urge no matter how dark, odd or dangerous. No topic need be off limits, – it’s only the setting of boundaries that is off limits! This leads to a kind of Judas betrayal of real value, ideals and beliefs and writers, film makes, actors must take responsibility for what they attempt to make seem innocent.

Reluctantly I am inclined to agree with religious critics of Fifty Shades, that it might actually be better not to see this film. You are only voting for what helps nothing and nobody much beyond lining the author’s pockets. It’s not the same as attending the games of Rome in its decadence, but you could call it a step along the way.




Pope Francis Attends Weekly Audience


It’s far from Peter’s Square to Tacloban
But whether near or far, Beelzebub
Is having fun. From off the papal head
Not once but thrice have faithful crowds
Been forced to see how into a saucy
Wind with its own mind, whoosh,
Away a white biretta flies. [1]
Third time occurred where formerly
Destruction fell and multitudes still
Wait and long for healing of the memory.
And there, before due time, the pontiff
Left lest gusting winds and heavy skies
Prove harbinger of more typhoon or
At the very least delay.

It’s not as though even with a skull cap
More secure the suffering masses would obtain
Quite all the consolation so desired.
Rome’s Bishop says “I walk with silent heart”.
Faced with disaster there is no reply – alone
The Lord could give such he maintains
Because he knows all and was on the cross,
But in distress reach hands for Mary, call her “Mom.”

Yet why such reticence it’s fair to ask,
And ask of him whose faith is bold to post
Even atheists to highest bliss? “Christ’s Vicar”,
If that name were true, would know the answers
Of his Lord, would speak for times and seasons,
Any signs of end, declare like prophets
On the human plight and evil’s rule.
Then too, should not this Vicar own
Those powers like Christ’s at Galilee
To send back wind and wave, command
Wild weather’s forces to be bound?

But no, despite the goodness of the man
The welcome beacon of his honesty
The sometimes insight and the love,
He’s limited. There never was nor is
A special “Vicar” of the Christ. The kingdom’s
Keys were given less to Peter’s hands
Than to his declaration of belief. [2]

And now, as though too long false claim
Had grasped excess of privilege,
The forecast last of those to carry keys [3[
Renounces glory humbly. But now so late
It’s not enough and more divestment
There must be. The omens sound
The signs appear, the head will lose authority,
Rome’s throne fall vacant while the streets around
Lie open to barbarian hordes. Impatient
For world’s evil hour, the hell hounds
Which the leader hears, strain at the leash [4]
By God held back a little time, while
From the corners of the earth winds rise
To pluck from robes and caps their majesty.


The title’s Ichabod means “the glory has departed” and was the name given by the daughter-in-law of the priest Eli who gave birth at the time the Philistines seized the Ark of the Covenant from Israel (1 Sam 4:19-22) in punishment, it was said, for an evil priesthood.

[1] The three occasions of biretta loss were Oct 2014 in St Peter’s square, upon arrival in Manila, Philippines in January 2015 and again (but the biretta was retrieved) as Pope Francis left the typhoon ravished Tacloban because a storm was approaching.

[2] In Matt 16:16 where Peter declares Jesus the Messianic divine Son, Jesus says Peter is the little stone (petros) but he will found his church upon the big rock (petra) of faith. Or so can be deduced from the Greek text although the Aramaic Jesus would normally have spoken (but raised near the Greek city of Sepphoris he would probably have known and spoken Greek sometimes) does not make this stone/rock distinction. Since however Peter’s declaration of belief was made in Greek-speaking Caesarea Philippi and where Pan was venerated below Mt Hermon, perhaps the confession was originally and defiantly made in Greek occasioning the little/big stone distinction. Since a Messiah should not initially be self- declared (something modern scepticism overlooks when it states Jesus never claimed to be Messiah) the early church necessarily regarded Peter as their voice and prime leader in some sense. But notions of a distinctly Roman Petrine authority is a late and political development. I even regard the tension over Peter’s status and role as curiously reflected in my data for Christ’s birth (see Testament of the Magi in which, via the asteroids, one can see Rocher (Rock) and Stone significantly conjunct a world point, but in tension aspect (quincunx) to a conjunction of San Pedro, Roma and Isis, suggestive of the Isis-style Marian religion that much Catholicism has been, overtaking and in uneasy relation to Peter’s original declaration.

[3] According to the much disputed medieval Prophecy of St Malachy, Pope Francis should be the last Pope who defends the church during persecutions and times of the Antichrist. He is described as “Bishop of Rome” only – the informal Francis arguably assumes this role. As one of the possible omens, lightening struck the Vatican when the last of the traditional Popes, Benedict unexpectedly retired.

[4 The world’s worst hour is when the devil descends to earth (Rev 12:12). It is likely that the leader (i.e.the Pope) known, despite his liberalism, for a more hidden obsession with the devil, “hears” threatening sounds which speak to the role of purported last pope.




America believes in positive thought and American religious organizations mostly follow suit, often with a vengeance. Organizations don’t want your criticism however reasoned or justified; on the Net especially you are required to fill in boxes saying how a book or broadcast or crusade blessed you.

If you had messages from heaven for notable ecclesiastical figures or religious writers, you wouldn’t get through. Their system of minders or their publishing houses, their publicity machine or something will be in the way. They are just efficient businesses. And just as business corporations can be ruthless and immoral so too are many religious organizations. There is so little real, meaningful accountability because criticism doesn’t reach the top which hears what it wants to hear with the result scandals often go long undetected.

The system will however regulate you, the ordinary believer, the insufficiently connected nobody. I cannot for example even write any more replies to conversations on the Christian Post because on one occasion I mentioned and gave address to my Songs of Puritania on a Gay Theme. The word “Puritania” derives from famous religion writer C.S.Lewis. An automatic notice came up that indecent language etc is not allowed. I pointed out more than once to management the source of my vocabulary. I have never received a reply and there has been no correction to the faulty system be it of computers or values. I don’t trust American religious journalism and journalists but I won’t go into stories on that subject even though as regards discussion of the Bethlehem Star it would be seasonal enough to do so – be assured even to mention the word “astrology” where that subject is concerned can be red rag to a bull.

Enough if I relay here my most recent gripe over something refused publication……a decision conveyed me through a convenient noreply address….which I consider an insult. American Christians are just too street wise and clever altogether in their management of people. They corrupt other societies (as Africa and Asian churches have been corrupted with prosperity gospels) with the artificiality of their practices, and as it’s computerized America has almost invented the abrupt rude answer or none the “good” Christians follow suit!


From Twitter I had seen that FashionedofGod was asking for Gay Christian experience stories of any length written or videoed. I gave one titled A Long Disappointment (I paste it below). It was a longish account (but I checked and found it not longer than one they had printed). It was consciously different in emphasis as stressed from the first, and it was certainly heartfelt, almost gut spilling. It genuinely constitutes my experience. It is not flattering to the gay (Christian) community of especially America, but it needs to be said. It received the following response.

After review, we decided that your submission falls outside of the primary focus of our website (to share and highlight personal memoirs of gay Christians as they struggle reconciling their faith and sexuality). Though very well written, your submission focused more on your struggles of an author and your views/theologies being rejected. We hope you are able to find a better outlet for your submission, but unfortunately we have decided not to post it to We are open to posting another submission that focuses more on your personal memoir of being gay and Christian.

Well, at least I wasn’t accused as I once was by an editor of the White Crane gay spiritualities magazine of not being able to write properly in English! But no, I shall not be submitting anything else. I have told the simple truth as I know and have experienced it. It is not an American story of happy endings, it is not a story of the gay person persecuted by straight conservative Christians. My struggle as writer, scholar, but also a gay Christian one, my effort to contact and communicate, that is very much part of my story even if it constitutes a different and inconvenient truth. And the kind of abuse indicated needs to be on record as much as any other kind of abuse or prejudice.

Any more sympathetic editor of more Christian sentiments ought to have regretted my situation and/or advised where the article might find the alternative home he hopes for it. But no, I don’t fit the American religion and culture factory size and that’s all that matters; and I so won’t get equal treatment with the rest to say my bit however deserved.

One of the concerning aspects of the gay movement as it has developed, is precisely that it speaks so much of “equality” and fairness but it isn’t necessarily about that and practicing it itself. (This unevenness of practice is a problem with especially queer theory and activism as this works out – the problem is the basis of a recent critique by an atheist about the way the gay marriage issue has been treated.(See Brendan O’ Neill’s Spectator magazine article, Gay Marriage and the Death of Freedom.)…..I also hint at it in my latest poem at McCleary’s Alternatives, see A Saint’s Mistake”: A Poem of St Paul. I don’t of course seek to blacken the entire Gay Christian community, but I do have questions and suspicions with regard to especially its leadership much as I likewise do of the secular gay movement and especially the American wing of both. Anyway, just for the record and to give myself some peace of mind, I reproduce my contribution here because I say NO MORE; I refuse this constant silencing and censorship, especially as a religious person by religious people. It is nothing short of a curse, one I refuse.


What I shall say here will be different from anything else you will receive but it needs to be stated and put on record. Anyone interested in actual details of my life and beliefs as a gay Christian person can go to my memoir, Reflections of an Only Child ( which includes on such matters, so I will put the stress elsewhere. My feelings about being gay and Christian is that I might as well not be so as especially American and Canadian gay Christians, (the main core and source of identity and thought in this line), have never helped or supported me in the slightest degree. My record of dealing with them is so negative that I am left a species of alienated anti-gay gay, much as Camille Paglia is the anti-feminist feminist.

My doctorate, subsequently published as A Special Illumination: Authority, Inspiration and Heresy in Gay Spirituality (2004) ( was a world first on gay spiritualities from any religious studies dept anywhere. It was even hoped it could help make gay spirituality an academic study akin to women’s studies. Though flatteringly reviewed on Amazon by Jewish agnostic novelist, Perry Brass, and mentioned by former MCC leader Kittredge Cherry, that’s it in ten years.

Though the straight Prof Martyn Percy of Oxford opined I had probably given the best summary of gay theology to date, I never received any gay Christian mention, not even by the Gay Christian Movement in London where the book was published though I did ask. I was also shockingly widely misrepresented on media from Australia to America and beyond as someone paid by the Australian government to research Jesus’ sexuality, but no one came to my aid to undo this nonsense. Advocate magazine ignored an appeal to correct what they had repeated from false report. During the last year as the rarest of rare events, Jeff Chu of A Gay Christian’s Pilgrimage did nicely reply to a message of mine, but didn’t look at something I asked him to examine.

By contrast to the misrepresentation, if and when I have had intelligent things to say about Jesus’ sexuality, more reverent and theologically and esoterically coherent than the likes of queer theology and Robert Goss’s Queering Christ, or the often profane wanderings of Marcella Althaus-Reid (who privately worshipped the goddess Bast) nowhere have I got heard and supported by gays for that. In fact, it was the lack of essential support from within the right religious and academic circles that has meant that the kind of post-doctoral work I was at one time ready and able to do on the needed subject of gay ethics never went forward. Also that my book was not more widely distributed and translated into Spanish as originally intended and expected – I was told there were people in S. America wanted use of my studies.

I have been undermined. I was told by Soulforce they couldn’t give a link to a former personal website because I was “too commercial” having supposedly “advertised” my writings on it. I have got and get no replies out of anyone, even if it’s a person I have written or spoken favourably of like Andrew Sullivan. From the first the now trendy Matthew Vines has never contacted, or mentioned me. I have tried three times to make contact, but no more. Same with Justin Lee of the Gay Christian Network. But even here in Australia the MCC pastor in Sydney has never had the courtesy to reply to me. (As to the American MCC forget about it, I might as well never have existed). I tweeted Lee and numbers of others just recently because my blog has issued a quite meaningful, accomplished poem, A Saint’s Mistake: A Poem of St Paul, ( which highlights and explains something about St Paul that not even the theologians have been able to explain and which potentially helps resolve a problem about the apostle’s attitude to same sex matters.

Who bothers to look at this – except the straights?! I have had appreciation from readers of my blog, but gays or gay orgs I contacted made no comment. I wasn’t surprised. At this late date in time, I was merely curious to see if anyone might actually think to relent and reply. Last year (in the gay month) I had out a longish, satirical poem Songs of Puritania on a Gay Theme. ( This almost summarizes and gives answers to the gay situation. It was again quite accomplished poetry – it could do for Brecht in a satirical moment – and it could and should have gone viral if it had had any appropriate gay interest and support. It had none just as many years before and even before my doctoral studies gays wouldn’t look at, wouldn’t publish and weren’t interested in some quality gay related verse of mine, belatedly issued as Puer Poems. Leave it to straights to appreciate that sort of thing. (Actually Songs of Puritania is to be videoed next year in Canada but I am not expecting gays will bother to look at it even then).

I haven’t told the half and I am not even prepared to depress myself doing so. I am moreover sick to death of straights telling me they now understand or like gays better now because of me, while gays I thereby help can’t be bothered to acknowledge of understand me. But sufficient I have made a point here. Today I am the carer of an elderly parent. Gays and their issues play ever less part in my life. I only ever write on the gay issue to support truth or to protest the worst abuses such as one may find in Africa or Russia which Christian conservatives have facilitated. One protests this kind of thing simply because human feeling and Christian conviction impel it, but for the rest I am dissociated from gays because they have too long been dissociated from me.

I know a former actor and one time leader of several gay groups here in Australia. He suffered various setbacks, strokes etc which have limited him in numbers of ways. He has told me he now thinks gays are useless, no help or support, they are made for parties. If you’ve got problems and need help, go to the straights! I should like to think he was wrong and still more that one could except gay Christians from his judgment, but I have no special reason to do so. If you are gay, and I believe most gays are born that way, you won’t and can’t be cured of being so, but you can be cured of needing gays and I have been. I have learned other social and intellectual interests.

Today I even feel more identity as a poet than as any gay person. It would be nice to be recognized for one’s work and ideas and I could have contributed so much more had that been the case; but I’ve survived without that recognition and now I don’t need it. I can forgive, but obviously I can’t forget, the appallingly insensitive treatment which has been in its way career damaging as well as demoralizing. Nothing would change now if somehow I or anyone shamed the community, as it should be shamed, into at least basic politeness towards me, a proper acknowledgement of my existence.

Really what I think is needed is nothing short of a whole new culture and value system for gays who are just caught in varieties of self-obsession, Americans more than most. I could laugh at all this recent talk from Vines about “New Reformation”, there’s more than any theological one is needed! My experience can be called a peculiar one. It is as though all the kind of problems of which gays complain in terms of no social acceptance, the prejudice and put downs, has come to me instead through the gay community itself rather than the straight society accused of so many wrongs..

It is too late to be rid of the long hurt I have experienced. I can only hope that my very negative experiences can become known and some kind of lesson can be derived from it. Some relevant articles and poems of mine are God and the Gay Gaps in the Vision of Matthew Vines The Fatal Flaw in the Matthew Vines, Albert Mohler Gay Debate ( Songs of Puritania on a Gay Theme ( A Saint’s Mistake: A Poem of St Paul. >



Pope Francis continues to surprise with paradoxes and contradictions. As he means well and often hits right, one dislikes even as a non Catholic to go against the  general spirit of reform and good will to criticize; but sometimes Francis  is plain myopic or eccentric, even  dangerously so.

On his recent visit to Turkey it was good that Francis urged Muslim leaders to protest the current terrorism of such as ISIL that threatens minorities, especially Christian ones. It’s nevertheless  doubtful that short of immediate political threat to their own nations those leaders  will notably speak out. I suggest they will not do so for the same reasons I gave in the article on Prince Charles who has likewise called for more protest in this line.  (See )

It was however highly controversial that the Pope prayed in Istanbul’s Blue Mosque (rather than like Pope Benedict before him just “contemplated” ) and towards Mecca. This will be read by some as symbolizing a kind of spiritual submission to Islam (the name means submission) and esoterically/spiritually may even in the long run make for something to that effect. It was still more controversial to declare the Koran a book of peace, perhaps especially so in Turkey where as even a recent BBC article pointed out (the very multicultural and sceptical BBC is not notably pro Christian), a century ago the population of Turkey was 20% Christian whereas it is not 0.2%. This situation owes much to a genocide of the Armenians under the Ottoman empire not admitted or regretted by Turkey but an example to Hitler for his “last solution”.


As stated in the mentioned article, in and out of the Koran, the peace understood by mainstream Islam is most essentially the peace which settles upon a world subject to Sharia Law. Mystics (like the Sufis) and heretics and nominal believers may see things differently or would like to, and there are unquestionably peaceful Muslims, but there is a strong warlike history and tone to the religion all the same. “Slay all the unbelievers wherever you find them” is explicit in the Koran at 2:19.

Anyway, a jihad/war theme is sufficiently emphasized in Koran and Hadith (the Sayings) for it not to be too lightly and easily dismissed as only “fundamentalism”. And it is surely inappropriate for Pope Francis to reduce all problems in Islam and across the religions to “fundamentalism” as though he himself is not capable of fundamentalism (not biblical but scholastic philosophical) when he supports, for example, an exceptionless doctrine of respect for life as in the case of abortions.

Pope John Paul 11 kissed the Koran. Pope Benedict rather dissociated himself from this kind of world religions ecumenism but now Pope Francis, who one wonders has he actually read the Koran, declares a scripture which has it that Muslims should not even be friends with infidels, is a book of peace,  the book  moreover which even if it is about peace contains radical denials of Christ’s status and meaning in Christian terms..

Perhaps the most peaceful thing about the Koran is its declaration that war should only be defensively pursued. This would encourage peace if it weren’t that given the many people and beliefs disapproved by the same scripture too many Muslims take the stipulation as a reason to be offended about many  things in order to go on the offensive, like the attack I mentioned on an entire Christian village because one Copt had merely put Like on a Facebook page referring to evangelism. This was deemed an insult to true religion, it must be avenged!  Few people groups are as  sensitive as the Muslim, but Pope Francis says he understands the offence Muslims feel that their religion is not considered a religion of peace. He is concerned they not feel this way. Indeed?!


It all makes little sense, so little that one feels like saying the Pope can’t read. But it arguably makes some sense prophetically….and then, does not even St Paul hope that all might prophesy (1 Cor 14:5) rather than that the prophetic function should be limited to the smallest possible number. So I shall – sort of – declare and forecast.

It is very likely that this “last” Pope (at least the last according to the St Malachy prophecy) is intentionally or unintentionally preparing the way to a world religion through Rome that according to the late Catholic seeress, Jeane Dixon, will rapidly follow upon the death of the last Pope (whom she alleged she saw assassinated). The development should be  part of a larger Antichrist phenomenon at the end of the era. (We are at the end of the age of Pisces that Christ’s birth might be said to have inaugurated. The  Muslims of ISIL firmly believe they are in the last times, though of course they don’t link this to the age of Pisces and not even many Christians know or grasp the significance of this).

Having proposed that atheists can be redeemed by their good works, and oddly tried to make ecumenical overtures to Pentecostalism through its controversial prosperity gospel wing (in rank contradiction of his declaration in favour of a new church poverty!), Pope Francis now seems to be selling the idea that all people of faith are “walking the same path” are “brothers and sisters” and can work and cooperate beyond and against various “fundamentalisms”.   Shortly before his trip to Turkey he presided over an ecumenical meeting of the world’s religions to discuss family values and ethics. “Dialogue” as against anything like the dirty word evangelization could hardly go further.

One may like to imagine cooperation does or could exist, but in reality there is, and always has been, such little cooperation between Christians and Muslims that in most places Christians have only ever been tolerated by Muslims. They are not allowed their natural human right (and even religious obligation), to declare publicly what their religion teaches. In Pakistan Christians are constantly threatened by vicious vigilante mobs ever ready to invent and believe new lies against Christians. In Egypt Christian girls and women are not safe against abduction and forced marriage. The list of abuses is endless. (In the face of this the West is either naïvely ignorant or grossly disloyal and unfair to Christians amid its bend-over-backwards concessions to multiculturalism and relativist secularist philosophies).

However, in line with Ireland’s favourite psychic Lorna Byrne who surprised many by alleging she saw a time when Christians would worship at Mecca, I suggest something of the sort is on the way – not worship at Mecca but as though at Mecca or towards Mecca like the Pope’s prayer. Chrislam, already gaining some traction in trend obsessed America, will be the next religious movement. Liberal Christians will join with Muslim moderates appalled by demonstrations of radical and medieval Sharia law. For Catholicism the drift will be facilitated through the Marian cult to which Pope Francis is much attached at the expense of Jesus. Francis is controversially opposed to anyone saying they have a personal relation with Jesus. According to The Catholic Reporter, the Pope has described as “dangerous” the temptation to believe that one can have “a personal, direct, immediate relationship with Jesus Christ without communion with and the mediation of the church.”


It is Mary and the Church who present you to Jesus (rather than Jesus relating you to the Father/Creator who almost gets counted out of this Catholic equation). But it is nonetheless Mary who can unify Muslims and Christians – Muslims are impressed that Mary supposedly appeared at Fatima, name of Mohammed’s daughter. Mary is more revered by Muslims (and Hindus, Buddhists etc) than the Jesus who is not understood in special terms of Messiahship and Sonship, issues which liberal Christians have tended to soft pedal . They now ignore, are unaware of, or underplay how Jesus was understood to be the manifest side of God, the Angel of the Lord, in a perfectly Hebrew understanding of doctrine and not the late Graeco-Roman construction sceptical scholarship had made the divinity of Christ  in a way which now assists misunderstanding, doubt and apostasy from original Christian teaching.

I will not speculate or forecast on whether the Pope will be assassinated as per Dixon’s claims re a last Pope, but I do think that when ISIL (in line with the Hadith referring to the last times that inspires the radicals) promises it will overrun Rome, this can be taken as likely. If ISIL is not stopped soon, which I doubt, this could occur as early as 2017 when I think Italy, the Vatican, St Peter’s could all find themselves in some trouble.

But what we can be sure of, is no Vatican is going to have any divine protection against disaster if it imagines it can become the umbrella of some new world religious movement on terms which embrace anyone or anything based on unrealistic notions of what constitutes  faith and love. Wrong beliefs cause the candlestick to be removed as per Rev 2:5. (I won’t controversially speculate on the theme that certain churches might not have fallen into quite the degree of oppression and disaster they have if certain qualities and beliefs had originally been more in evidence). The Catholicism which once damned all other churches declaring no salvation existed outside itself, is now ready to cooperate with all unbelievers of good faith anywhere. It makes the switch not least because Pope Francis believes that we can know we are touched by the Holy Spirit whenever we have tender feelings of the heart and reach out to people – in short “feel good” and “together” (rather than experience the vision and knowledge and spiritual gifts the Spirit is said to give).

We may need to remember that according to the mentioned Jeane Dixon, the horrors of the times of the Antichrist would begin with people drawn to the very pitch of feel-good, idealistic emotions. It of course  good to be good, but God and religion are about  a bit more than that and some goodness when misdirected can lead to chaos.


[ Below is the poem promised for September in my Rilke feature of last May on  the twin McCleary’s Alternatives site. As said, when composing this I had Goethe’s Prometheus in mind, but the resulting simple lyric has more affinities to early Rilke. Like almost all poems this one can be read more than one way, but I am publishing this on what I  always insist is the true Christmas (September 15th  – see notes to The Magi at Era’s End at so there’s a touch of carol to it.



The better to support this light
Bespeaking visions of pure clarity
The azure of the firmament
Spreads like a carpet or a floor
Where carefully I might tread
Sometime….but not today.

You can and will tread clouds.
I am unable; I may only observe or
Await them, their silence
Loud as your trumpets.

Like Ganymede raise me
But not as bearer of your cup.
I could not carry it. I wish
To drink of this infinity,
Swim in its river,
I only can.

Seize me; I will hold you
And you may hold me if you will
But do not take me,
(As though you would),
Less than forever.

I am in love and ravished with blue.
I know it is even also yourself.
It stirs within me like
The lightest breeze, now cool
Now spring warm with longing.
It is also motionless
Resting in deepest calm,
Having felt all ages as though
But drifted, passing moments
Within your being and its time

[This poem with others is now included in a second edition of my New Poems and Two Celtic Dramas see, . The dramas accompany the poetry as they are themselves poetic ]




 [ On Aug 18th Ireland’s Village magazine  issued an article critical of Seamus Heaney. As I’ve been unable to post a comment to Village – something looks to be wrong at the site, presumably the cause no one has written a reply to what elsewhere is being tweeted about – I shall put my response on record here].



It is refreshing to read any contrary or critical take on Heaney and the cult of him such as Kevin Kiely offers. Not everyone considers Heaney a notable poet – Camille Paglia wouldn’t even include him in an anthology, deeming him a third rate Yeats. My own views as author and poet were made clear enough last year in my poem and accompanying article Remembering Seamus Heaney at   Today I wouldn’t wish to add or subtract to what I wrote except to affirm that I don’t believe poetic inspiration or laws of inner being have anything in common with ripples over a scullery bucket – the sort of thing that got told to Heaney’s Nobel Prize audience.

Though he has inevitably been criticized for  “putting the boot” into a sacred icon, in the course of doing so Kiely is also right to raise questions about the literary establishment and how things get published and for whom and why. This is a valid issue too often ignored.

In my own case and scandalously, one of Australia’s leading poets, and despite the fact I had had a whole poetic drama broadcast on the ABC here, refused to accept me for Penguin New Poets because I had presumed to use “such hopelessly archaic words as ‘conduct’ and ‘bestow’”. In England (where Shakespeare actress Dorothy Tutin couldn’t get her recommendation of me for publication accepted) or Ireland, the attitudes aren’t much better, and it’s the reason for many years I abandoned poetry as any kind of expression for anything at all if you really want to communicate ideas and beliefs to the public. Also if you have any kind of  feelings higher than the “Mud Vision” (which in some ways encapsulates Heaney’s extreme earthiness), then there’s no place for you in the new humdrum, anti visionary world  of modern poetry. By now its bias  has seriously compromised a major function of poetry in reaching towards the transcendent.

Last year I suggested, more than once, that Poetry Ireland might read my if nothing else  competent  The Hell Passage: Inferno Cantos for Today ( I never received so much as an acknowledgement from them, though I did from such as Howard Storm, author of the bestselling My Descent into Death, who opined as one who claimed to have visited hell, that it was a good evocation he hoped many might read. (It is incidentally not based on my own experiences!). However, a recent poem of mine, Coming to Syracuse (Epyllion not Epic,  Urblogues not Eclogues) (, is based, among other things, upon visiting Sicily this year. I have not offered it or anything written during the last year to any magazine or publisher as it seriously isn’t worth it. The prejudiced attitudes of the literary establishment are such I would no longer waste my time. Let others appeal for me if they consider my work worth it – as they should.

Even the mentioned Australian poet who turned me down, remarked I must have been studying the classics for years (but I hadn’t) to arrive at such Virgilian musicality. The secret they didn’t know (and I myself wasn’t aware of back then over twenty years ago) and doubtless the un-Yeatsian rationalist literary establishments would discount, is that as far as the heavens are concerned I have already won the lottery where poetry is concerned. In improbable combination, Poesia   (the asteroid)  was stationed in my house of destiny at birth, Virgil  conjuncted my sun and Shelley was at the rising. Small wonder poet and critic Kathleen Raine made a comparison of me with the Romantics and some of my work as in “Syracuse” looks back to Latin Verse. To make a boast in truly traditional Irish style, basically it is  myself who more than most represents the future of whatever poetry there will be in what is a somewhat post-poetic world. It will just take time to recognize the fact. Meanwhile there are some bitter truths to tell. Next month I will issue an autobiography, Reflections of an Only Child, which will establish the truth about many things and people I’ve dealt with from royalty to publishing in no uncertain terms.

[ October 2018.   My Amazon review of Kiely’s book on Heaney can be read here ]